Just Do It: Conquering Your Fears
It's 2:08 AM as I write this post, contemplating whether or not I should make it public or keep it private. The fear of being so open about my anxiety is real. However, in order to grow as a person, I have to be honest and not pretend everything is OK. I don't want this blog to seem like a "Dear Diary, here are my troubles," but I also want to be as authentic as possible (to the few people that love me enough to read this, thank you).
(please excuse my drawing. it was a quick test on Wacom tablet)
So I'm here, writing this post still thinking "should I or shouldn't I?" and I realize that's my main problem.
The fear of being different.
I've always wanted to different. Looking at what everyone else is doing, I told myself I didn't have to be like them. Not because they're bad or what they're doing is wrong. Why copy someone else when I can be myself.
"What if myself isn't good enough?"
That voice in my head nags sometimes and it prevents me from doing that thing or I procrastinate and say, "Um, maybe later."
We've all done it. Some of us say it's not worth it and move on, others just do it and then there's some of us, me, who dwell and analyze everything to the point that the opportunity passes and then you're left with the shoulda/coulda/woulda.
This has been my life; I want to do something but anxiety stops me from doing it. Becoming a freelancer was a huge step because I put myself out there, but I still have doubts.
I can change this. I can talk myself out of my over analyzing and just do it--cheesy but Nike has a point.
I have a lot I want to do, a lot I want to achieve, and a lot I want to share with people. If you happen to stumble across this post and are in question about if you should do this or that, do it. Take the chance. Don't be like me and let anxiety take over. You're better than that.